doubts.

i have this doubt for this asshole.
he left me after 3 years because he just lost his feelings towards me or he was really confident we couldnt end up together in the end because of his family?

long distance sucks. especially kena tinggal over the phone je. damn it
nak marah straight face to face orang tu jauh beribu batu.
my anger never fades away. this geram is always inside of me.

fuck all relationshps.
nothing lasts. semua bullshit.
i sacrificed so much tears, energy, money, time, effort, feelings.
it drains me. it fucking drains me because in the end it destroyed me.
i dont like having feelings anymore.

self abandonment is the after effect of a failed relationship
this isnt about getting back together with your ex.
this is about how i'm going to build up myself again

i try to like someone else. i try to build that whole feeling again but it never works.
THIS IS SO FUCKING UNFAIR.
kau tengok lah nanti Tuhan balas kau mainkan perasaan orang camni
your family sucks too. you're the main jerk anyway.

ye aku tau tak elok pun ada relatioship ni, tapi kalau nak kawen sekali pun pe jadah calon pun takde